To be or not to be ...

Blogging after a break.

Every time I sit in a meeting where the discussion is about things that doesn’t interest me, this thought comes to me that I don’t belong here.May be I have blogged about this a 100 times. But when things haven’t changed around and within me I wont have anything new to write about.
To be in such a field needs the passion – passion to even cheat the conscience ( when you have to advocate the processes which u don’t believe in ) . There should be a reason other than just money. ( money ofcourse is a good driving force though..but not for ever ) .
I feel I have been away from humanity since long that I long to be back home. Living with data , text and meetings is like living on crash diet. Eventually I lose my interest to be the centre of attraction in a group where every body strives to be the centre of attraction. I feel like taking the back chair and resting for some time and shutting out the noises and competition and silent throat slitting for a while.
Winning is all about shouting out and doing things different – even if the difference is the most weird of what you can imagine.

May be like what mentioned earlier – perhaps I am a bit too separated from humanity that I have lost my interest in work completely . May be things will fall in place once I am back in Trivandrum. Well , it should . It would .

And for the time being … let me say the door is half open.